Halfway through March!

I cannot believe how fast time flies.  Like really, it's March already?!  Anyway, my birthday is a few weeks away and I've been procrastinating.  How the hell would I celebrate it this year?  Should I just spend it with my family or go crazy and book a VIP section at a club?  I've already done the latter last year but I'm thinking of doing it again this year but crazier this time around.  If I'm gonna do it, I should be booking the place like right now.  But the laziness in me is winning by a mile.  Or maybe not celebrate it at all??  Hmm, that sounds very tempting in a way.  I don't have to fuss over arrangements and shit and I get to be lazy and do nothing instead of nursing a very nasty hangover the next day.  Yeah, I've got such big problems eh?

Krissy P. Divina (krissypdivina.blogspot.com): Popcorn, Balut, Mango and Coke.Acrylic on Canvas....

Krissy P. Divina (krissypdivina.blogspot.com):
Popcorn, Balut, Mango and Coke.Acrylic on Canvas....: "Popcorn, Balut, Mango and Coke.Acrylic on Canvas. 35x53. 2011."


** I just wanted to share this to all of you. This painting is done by one of my greatest friends, Krissy. And yes, one of them is me with Krissy and Melanie (one of our good friends as well) during our younger years, though I haven't seen them in years, the memories we've made are relived in this one painting.  I love it and I want it on my wall! Thank you Krissy! You are forever appreciated!

Confession #22

You know when you're down but whatever you do to keep your spirits up, nothing changes?  It's like, you try to look at the good side of things but then you get sucked up in this vortex of unhappiness that you can't escape?  That's how I'm feeling right now.  I mean I'm happy with my family and everything else but I can't help but feel trapped in this situation which is my job.  I know it's easy -- do something and make a change right?  Well to me it's not.  I so badly want to get out of this hellhole and do something but I just can't seem to do it.  I have responsibilities and I need to bring in a second income to help.  I keep thinking, my husband makes more money than I do and even with only his income we would be fairly comfortable.  He's very supportive of me doing what I think would be best for me and us.  But then again, I wasn't raised to depend on anybody.  I'm a very independent person and I want to keep it that way.  Am I even making sense?

I've been looking for courses to take for a career change and so far I've narrowed it down to two.  Medical Office Administration or Dental Assistance.  I'll probably choose the latter.  But at this time, it's only just a plan.  A plan that I have yet to execute to better our life as a family.  I need to do this.  I must do this mainly because I have to save my sanity.  All I need to do is research more about it and a whole LOT of convincing.  God help me.